It really hurts, when my friends tell me my boyfriend is a sponge & a waster. Yes, I accept the fact that things aren't perfect, I accepted that a long time ago, but he does not take advantage of me & I do not let him think that for even one minute that he can. Ok he doesn't have a job, he hasn't had one for a while & things financially are, shall we say, a wreck. BUT it does not gve you all the right to tell me I'm acting like an idiot by supporting him! Ok there are times when I've wanted to just stop & go back to how things used to be before all this money trouble. I even threatened to kick him out if he didn't get his act together. He may wish on some subconscious level to be mothered it's true, BUT he is the kindest most generous & loving man I've ever had in my life & more than I deserve after some of the things I've done. It hurts me so badly that you people, the ones who "care" (in your own words) can't see past the outside of the picture. You don't know what a real relationship is, what real love is, you're all too busy being young & naieve & self absorbed. What would you do if you were me??? Would you really give up on the person you loved with every fibre of your being, the person you want to spend the rest of your life with, all on the basis of a few short months in what could potencially be a lifetime together? Are you really so self pittying that you couldn't weather the storm & see just one thing through in your life with conviction & dignity?! You, who are consumed with gossip & what's best for you, not once did you stop to think that someone elses feelings, besides your own, are involved here! His feelings & mine. Would it not bother you to learn that the world viewed you as a loser when all you are trying to do is better yourself? What good is a job in Mc Fucking Donnalds if it doesn't even fix the short term problems, let alone the long term ones!!!!! Did you ever once think how you would feel if you found this all directed at you? Am I such a poor judge of character, so untrustworthy with my own life, that none of you can see that I know what I'm doing? You don't know the conversations we have, in the depths of the nght when we can't sleep because of the stress, or the worry. You don't see or hear the feelings cried into our pillows, or each others shoulders. The hopes & dreams that we thought, this time, might come true, only to be thrashed down by another pointless interview. You can't see how much it hurts him to have to live the way we do, how much he wants to change that & be financially supportive as well as emotionally & physically. He tries, every day, to make things easier & all you do is critisize! How do you expect him to improve if all you bastards do is put him down & put my attempts to help him on his way down too? You're narrow minded & selfish. I'm sat here, in tears because you think the worst of him & thus me. This is the man I will marry & have a family with, the man I will make my life with, the man I love & not one of you has ever wished me luck or said you're happy for me, not one of you! Yes this may sound like the ramblings of a pathetic attempt to make you all see sense & my efforts will probabley be in vain. But remember this & ponder on it if you will, standing on a snail & crushing it's shell does not make a free slug, it just crushes the snail. If you knock him back & down a peg whenever you get chance, how will he ever make himself more than he is? You're cold hearted & callous & you should look closer to yourselves for your own failings before you comment on other peoples. You have no right to judge him if you cannot judge yourself my so-called friends.